A little something from my heart...I guess it's been a little emotional recently getting the van and special needs stroller.....
Where to begin.....
A special needs mom has all the hopes for their child that every mom does, only to find out something is terribly wrong and those hopes are instantly shattered. Suddenly your hopes become that maybe one day your child can see a little or eat a full meal. Sure you can dream that they will walk and talk.
A special needs mom appreciates any type of development their child makes, other mothers take for granted that their children can run and play and talk to them, something that just comes naturally.
A special needs mom may think to herself, maybe he's really not that bad only to be surrounded by other babies and children where development just spews out of them and it may have taken months for your child to smile.
A special needs mom gets to buy her child wheel chairs, feeding pumps, and other equipment. Other moms get to buy their children tricycles and video games.
A special needs mom dreads holidays because their child has no clue they even exist. Other moms get to ask their children what they want from Santa and watch their kids go trick or treating and hunt Easter eggs.
A special needs mom cries because their child will never get married, other mothers get angry because their child is marrying a "loser". She may also cry knowing her child can never play sports or musical instruments while other moms yell at their children when they don't play good enough.
A special needs mother keeps quite when other mothers complain about their children messing up the house or playing to loud, but they really want to shake some sense into her!!
My heart aches for Layne, he can never go to regular school, play with friends, eat a happy meal, look at his mommy or daddy, get married, have children, or any part of life that is just plain normal! I am glad though that he will never know all of that, he only knows that we are his parents and we give him as much love as possible and it will be that way forever!
Never ever take your children for granted! They are beautiful gifts from God!
2 comments:
This made me cry ... you are such a wonderful mom and that is the reason God gave you Layne. No one else would have even come close to being good enough ... *tears*
It's so hard dealing with so much. I know our case is different. I can't even pretend it is similar. Just know that Layne has touched our hearts. We feel blessed to know his story and to know you thru this blog.
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